My sensitivity used to make me feel so broken. And the reality is, sometimes it is very heavy.... it can make certain situations incredibly challenging to work through. Things that are easy for others to brush off without a second thought, I carry for much longer. I feel everything deeply and experience a wide range of emotion. I'm not gonna lie, this makes shit really hard sometimes. So in every situation, in every relationship, I have to choose if I'm going to guard my heart or if I'm going "all in"...
Sometimes I choose well and frankly other times I don't .... and then I have to deal with the consequences of that choice and do the hard work to change the situation. This often leads to heartbreak and grief, which of course I feel deeply. But I've learned that I need to let myself feel my emotions fully, even these painful ones. I need to explore what I'm meant to learn from the situation so I can choose differently next time. And I've learned that the best way for me to do this is to retreat in solitude for a day or a week, or however long it takes. This is what works for ME, it's how I tend to my heart when I am hurting.
But there's a flip side to the pain. The depth of my feeling isn't just limited to the painful emotions. I also deeply feel joy, gratitude, and love. I am a very passionate woman. I care deeply and when I choose to invest my energy somewhere, I truly do go all in. I am fully present and give my whole heart. Yes, sometimes this leads to heartbreak. But sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes it leads to something truly amazing.
My sensitivity traits are what allow me to experience such richness in life and are what make ME. As challenging as it can be sometimes, I've come to embrace my sensitivity as one of my greatest gifts.
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